I Love Him♥

♥ He's not the best looking, he's not the smartest in the world, he can be a jerk sometimes, but for some reason, I don't care , I love him.♥

♥Happy 1st ♥

Relationships do not get easier. Every day is a struggle, Every day is a battle. It doesn't get easier with time. In fact, it gets harder. The secret is finding someone who's willing to be weak and strong with you at the same time. The secret is finding someone who's willing to work with you and who will push you, challenge you, make it harder for you to leave. The beauty is in the struggled I'm lucky to find a man who never quit on me, the man who makes me the happiest.

Today is our 1st month, where still on the short run but it never felt that we just met,because everyday is like we've known and love each other for the longest time.

We've started as total strangers, and it was just through text that we met 4 years ago, and since then we became friends and started to share a lot of things with each others.

Our closeness started to grow in to a deeper relationship that in a while, he started admitting his feeling with me, but since I was very immature during those days, I never take love seriously, I flirt a lot, see other guys. I declined and reject the love he offered to me. I knew by that time I was feeling something already but I was always have doubts about our distance, because ever since then, Long Distance Relationship is a no! No! For me. I know i make “paasa”, but It wasn't my intention.


I caused him pain, and it was just later on that I realized how much he means to me, but he was in love with another girl. And not in my life I thought of feeling an extreme pain , he was into someone and it made me felt really regretful. His attention is no longer with me, “HER” is no longer the apple of his eyes. It makes me sad, that i took distant for 3 months, no text messages at all, that I even deleted him on my Facebook friend list.That's when the time I realized that you would only know the value of a person in your life when he stops showing that he loves you . It was the time that I realized that I can't lose him.



But God has always his ways of putting things on the right perspective, so in March we finally communicate again, and renew the friendship we had, but this time there's no bitterness and pain. Everything was back to usual, common talk, sharing of stories and happy conversations. Then it was all the start of a good relationship, I enjoyed each day because of him, and I felt it was the time to give this feelings chance to grow. And came the 30th we officially commit.


And today, i felt incomplete because I cannot celebrate this day with him, it would have been better if he's here sitting beside me while we hold hands together and make the best out of this day, but unfortunately it cannot happen, and that's the thing that makes me a little sad, but I always put in my mind that he's just there even he's not physically around me, I know I own his heart, same way that he owns my heart.



B, i know its not gonna be easy, its gonna be really hard, and we gonna have to work at this everyday, But I wanna do that because I want you, I want all of you, forever, you and me everyday.


B, I can’t wait for that day when I’m going to wake up next to you.I don't want the expiration date, i want this for a long time

Where we will both open our eyes and both start looking at each other, face to face, smiling, and thinking to our self how much we love this moment. Wouldn’t it be nice to start off the day next to you? Sometimes, the smallest things mean the most. I'll whisper “I love you” and kiss you then say my sweetest good morning. I don’t know about you, but that’s something I’d appreciate doing and getting. I can’t wait for that day


I hope its not just 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th but many many years :)
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B

If you're going to love me, love me deeply. If you’re going to break my heart, then break it all. If you’re going to care, care for me completely. If you decide not to hold me, then just let me fall. If you’re going to stay, then stay forever and if you want to leave, then do it today. If you’re going to change, change for the better. And if you’re going to talk, please mean what you say.

I've never been jealous, I can't be jealous, and I don't want to be jealous!

Yes, I'm jealous, and it feels so bad. I'm not insecure about her, maybe I just don't like the idea that those pictures are being tag on my B's profile. It pissed me off, I don't know why but its something that irritates me. I know they are good friends, and I have nothing against that, but I can't help myself from being jealous because I know for a fact they are together most of the time, which I can't do. B posting comments on her wall is what I hate the most. I would always remember the time B gaved her too much attention. I know its not healthy for any relationship to have this kind of issue, that causes arguments most of the time.
B, just please don't give me any reasons to get jealous :(

*March 30, 2011*

Making a risk in the name of love, I never really like the idea of entering any long distance relationship.But now, it changes, this man changed my view of love. Stepping to a serious stage of relationship will not be easy, especially on our situation where we are 13 hours away from each other. But the feeling of knowing he's there not physically but emotionally is something that makes me choose to stick with this kind of set up. Yes, there will be times that I wanted to be there, taking care of him especially when he's sick, but I can't do anything about it. I need to be here to study and live my life. I know there will be challenges that our relationship will go through, but I know we can always survive everything because we had come so far, that even where far, a deep friendship was build between us through the years.
I'm looking forward on the days that will be together, spent our days doing the things we love to do. I wanted to be there on his side and tell him how much I love him, that I wanted to see myself being with him for so many years. Yes! Many years because I can't see myself being with someone else more than him.
I've waited for this for so long, and now its here I'll keep it and make sure that It will never be destroyed.

B, I LOVE YOU, and I can't wait to spend time with you. Let's take care of this, and love each other always =) I'M YOURS, your mine =)