♥Happy 1st ♥

Relationships do not get easier. Every day is a struggle, Every day is a battle. It doesn't get easier with time. In fact, it gets harder. The secret is finding someone who's willing to be weak and strong with you at the same time. The secret is finding someone who's willing to work with you and who will push you, challenge you, make it harder for you to leave. The beauty is in the struggled I'm lucky to find a man who never quit on me, the man who makes me the happiest.

Today is our 1st month, where still on the short run but it never felt that we just met,because everyday is like we've known and love each other for the longest time.

We've started as total strangers, and it was just through text that we met 4 years ago, and since then we became friends and started to share a lot of things with each others.

Our closeness started to grow in to a deeper relationship that in a while, he started admitting his feeling with me, but since I was very immature during those days, I never take love seriously, I flirt a lot, see other guys. I declined and reject the love he offered to me. I knew by that time I was feeling something already but I was always have doubts about our distance, because ever since then, Long Distance Relationship is a no! No! For me. I know i make “paasa”, but It wasn't my intention.


I caused him pain, and it was just later on that I realized how much he means to me, but he was in love with another girl. And not in my life I thought of feeling an extreme pain , he was into someone and it made me felt really regretful. His attention is no longer with me, “HER” is no longer the apple of his eyes. It makes me sad, that i took distant for 3 months, no text messages at all, that I even deleted him on my Facebook friend list.That's when the time I realized that you would only know the value of a person in your life when he stops showing that he loves you . It was the time that I realized that I can't lose him.



But God has always his ways of putting things on the right perspective, so in March we finally communicate again, and renew the friendship we had, but this time there's no bitterness and pain. Everything was back to usual, common talk, sharing of stories and happy conversations. Then it was all the start of a good relationship, I enjoyed each day because of him, and I felt it was the time to give this feelings chance to grow. And came the 30th we officially commit.


And today, i felt incomplete because I cannot celebrate this day with him, it would have been better if he's here sitting beside me while we hold hands together and make the best out of this day, but unfortunately it cannot happen, and that's the thing that makes me a little sad, but I always put in my mind that he's just there even he's not physically around me, I know I own his heart, same way that he owns my heart.



B, i know its not gonna be easy, its gonna be really hard, and we gonna have to work at this everyday, But I wanna do that because I want you, I want all of you, forever, you and me everyday.


B, I can’t wait for that day when I’m going to wake up next to you.I don't want the expiration date, i want this for a long time

Where we will both open our eyes and both start looking at each other, face to face, smiling, and thinking to our self how much we love this moment. Wouldn’t it be nice to start off the day next to you? Sometimes, the smallest things mean the most. I'll whisper “I love you” and kiss you then say my sweetest good morning. I don’t know about you, but that’s something I’d appreciate doing and getting. I can’t wait for that day


I hope its not just 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th but many many years :)
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