It took me not so long, but now I know the difference of actual love and infatuation, and it's clear to me that I love this guy. Eventhough he don't feel the same way like he used to feel before, Now I know the feeling of not being valued, the feeling of wanting someone you can't have. It's something that I never thought could happen to me. I had been a strong woman when it comes to love, but now, i don't know why i'm so weak?
Seeing there pictures is something that breaks my heart, but I guess that'sife, you cannot have everything you want. I don't know why i'm so complicated, there are guys here in Manila who's courting me, but I end up wanting this guy who's far from me, who loves someone else, see? I choose complicated situations.
The girl seems to be a nice girl, I feel so jealous about her, but I was never intimidated with what she is, because I know, I have something that she doesn't have, and I can do so many things that she can't.
I asked him if he loves her, and he said he does, there's a little pain on me, but I'm happy in other way around, because at some point in time I hurted him, he deserves to be happy. I guess, that's how love should be.
I believe that this happen because God has a better plan for me, maybe he wants me to learn the real meaning of love and how it should be taken cared of, maybe he wants me to find someone better for me in time, whatever his plans, I know he only wants the best for me.
And at the end of the day, we will all come to the discovery that our hearts are very precious. And at one point in time, we have to make it stop searching hold it still and remember that love does not want to be found. It finds us.
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